My entry into the world of BDSM

My first experience with rope bondage with a dominatrix:
For me it was a terrific experience and I would love to do it again and again.


I was tied up really well and lashed to the couch, couldn’t move a hand or a leg, was completely helpless.

For the first time in my life, I was doomed to do nothing and that felt totally good to me.

I was finally allowed to let go completely, to relinquish control, I no longer had to think, I was only allowed to feel. Since my eyes were also blindfolded, the feeling was further enhanced. Hearing and smelling were also sharpened, but feeling was most pronounced.

I was then left alone for a while, able to fully concentrate on myself and my feelings. I can’t think of a better meditation exercise. I felt an inner peace that I had never felt before. My mind, so difficult to silence, was silent, My body motionless, all muscles relaxed. I could have stayed like that for hours.


I was tied up, absolutely motionless and felt infinitely free….

Free from everyday life, free from all worries, fears, cares….

Free from constraints, expectations, need to function…

There I had found my inner center… found my peace.

I think this gives a little insight into my emotional world and what I actually need besides the sweet pain … the defenselessness of having to relinquish control … then I can fully let myself go